You know there are so many crazy realizations you come to and notice when you lose a significant amount of weight. & some times it’s hard to always keep the positives in the forefront of your mind; I never stop trying!
This weekend we went camping for our first trip of the season. It was a muddy mess since it poured most of the weekend but you know what? That didn’t stop us from enjoying our time with friends and family. Mud puddles and a happy little boy were the highlight of my weekend. And to add to it was the ability to play in those puddles and carry on with him without the extra two hundred plus pounds I used to wear. I ran through puddles, laughed, and enjoyed every moment of the weekend.
Even relaxing is some thing different than it used to be; you don’t have to fear that you won’t fit into the chair; that it’ll snap underneath you. Some days those fears are so far from my mind now that I forget they were ever there and others I still feel like I am that girl, terrified to sit on some one else’s chair in fear it will break; it has happened and it sucks!
Ummmm & Hello to not hating any and all candids or a picture from behind that you have to double take to make sure it’s really you! Who the hell knew at some point in my life I would be okay and even posting those pictures. But you see that girl laughing in the right one; that’s true happiness that has been fighting to come out for longer than I can remember! & that girl is here to stay! 😘
Also, one of my favorite (and possibly most expensive) non scale victories is that I can buy a shirt/sweatshirt off the shelf at the camp gift stores! I used to hate that I could never go into any store and find my size. Now it’s not a problem and it’s so amazing that I hope I never take it for granted!
Camping is a huge part of our life and with camping comes LOTS of different food. I ate more than I should’ve and things that aren’t the healthiest but you know what? I don’t regret any of it. I will falter and not always stick to my diet 100%. I’m human and life is short so some times I will eat the s’more or a few bites of pasta.
I am so far from who I used to be, mentally and physically. It’s all been a HUGE change. But it has been a transformation that I would do a thousand times over. I have been the shy girl, the wild child and every thing in between and while the road has been full of twists, turns and potholes I am so glad that my health is exactly where it needs to be.
So to any one out there reading this who feels like they are lost or not in the right place in their life; start focusing on you, your health and the love in your life. You will find your place and being healthy enough to enjoy it makes it so much better than you can ever imagine! This one is for you: ♥️
Shy girl; hiding in the back, hoping no one sees your rosey red cheeks;
It’s okay. you will find your voice. Don’t think you are weak.
Athlete; training harder than anyone ever thought you could;
It’s okay. You are pushing yourself like you said you would.
Lost soul; searching for more, begging to belong;
It’s okay. You are exactly where you’re meant to be, so brave and so strong.
Heavy one; tugging at your clothes, pain filling your eyes;
It’s okay. You are beautiful, no matter your size.
Wild child; dancing through the world, with a gypsy soul;
It’s okay. You are free, strong willed and out of control.
Whoever you are; living your life and finding yourself;
It’s okay. One size will never fit all; just focus on you & your health.
-Desiree Angelica Young