simplistic believer. soul searcher. fear conqueror. deep lover. unrealistic dreamer. & forever finding my own voice in this chaotically, beautiful world.
It’s my words. My lines. My stories to tell. It’s my memories. My pain. My own personal hell. The monsters lurking in the dark. The never ending sleepless nights. The shadows on the wall; disappearing with the morning lights. The pain brushed under the rug. The performance for all to see. You didn’t care, you... Continue Reading →
Last week. Last week was my 33rd birthday. 33 years filled with light and darkness. Love and pain. Laughter and tears. 33 years living a life I never imagined; regardless of what the situation I was currently going through consisted of; because I never dreamt I’d even make it to 33. But I am still... Continue Reading →
Trapped. Trapped in a body that is constantly at war with itself. Trapped in a novel full of horror hidden on the top shelf. Stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of pain. Stuck not knowing if I’ll ever feel “normal” again. Terrified. Terrified I’ll never find the answers I’m looking for. Terrified this is... Continue Reading →
I cried today; not for you but for me I cried for all the moments and the memories. I shed tears today because we were robbed of time. I shed tears because it happened with no reason or rhyme. I hurt today because I want you here. I hurt because I can’t believe it’s been... Continue Reading →
Autoimmune Diseases; Hell on Earth.
“Poppa, Poppa, Poppa”; I used to yell into the phone “Dez, Dez, Dez”; I was your Princess up upon my throne. You taught me to love with each and every piece of my broken heart. You assured me you’d always be with me; even when we had to be a part. You shared all your... Continue Reading →
I am like a pine tree; standing full and tall. My limbs are not perfect; some large, others small. I am like a pine tree; shedding my needles as time passes by. And the pieces either get engrained in those around me or simply fly. I am like a pine tree with deep and firm... Continue Reading →
Growth. It’s scary, painful and full of the unknown. It’s walking a crossed a stream; sliding forward, feeling your way, stone by stone.. Growth. It’s shedding the layers of skin you’ve wrapped upon yourself. It’s putting yourself first. Your emotional, mental and physical health. Growth. It’s trying, hard and can be a lonely place. It’s... Continue Reading →
Thank you. Thank you to those who undoubtedly believe in me. To those who push me to beyond all I thought I could achieve. Thank you. Thank you to those who have stood in my corner, time and time again. The ones who are cheering me on no matter how many times I’ve begun. Thank... Continue Reading →
We’ve all done it; at one point of another. We’ve placed our happiness and joy in another’s hands. We’ve expected others to shine light on our darkness without wanting to put the effort in to find our own source of light. We’ve waited around for someone else to come to us and lead us down... Continue Reading →
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